The Shadow - Projections - Co-Dependent Relationships - Dark Contracts - Impulses
"Shadows" can be like a nebulous dark cloud or fogginess that can surround and permeate a beings energy, consciousness and vibrational fields, thereby blocking the spiritual sun of their higher consciousness from fully shining out into the world. "Shadows" hide within and as ones' "blind spots" where our conscious mind cannot see into or through. Shadows may be created from "split off" traumatized aspects of the psyche and thus have a consciousness and self identity of their own containing unrealized desires, feelings, motivations and dreams. When least expected, the shadow self may jump out the depths of the hidden subconscious into everyday life, and uncontrollably say or do things far out of ones normal character. People who drink alcohol or take certain drugs may experience this phenomena, often having no recollection of what happened the next day, as if that memory was lost, but only suppressed within the "closet of the subconscious" (along with its other skeletons).
Through suppressed memories held within the subconscious mind (even those from past lives) can be retrieved through such tools as hypnosis, meditation and certain hallucinogens, awareness alone does not completely resolve, heal or clear the energies surrounding these experiences. The initial onset (and repetition) of trauma may have been so painful, confusing and overwhelming that the soul chose to not only suppress and separate out the memories but quarantine (like a computer anti-virus) and compress down (like a "zip drive") the energies of these traumas... and the traumatized parts... dropped and hidden in the vast multi-dimensional energy matrix of the body-mind. An awareness of these traumas may be a good first step, but some sort of soul retrieval work must be utilized to completely clear heal and restore the body-mind (and soul) back to the point of original integrity.
In the process of suppressing or rejecting the energies and soul parts engaged in these traumatic experiences, the soul broke or "disassociated" itself from any conscious-energetic links it may have had to them (burning its bridges, so to speak). At the time of its occurrence, the soul may not have had the energetic, spiritual, psychological resources to turn the information and energy of the trauma into something useful (nor may it have those resources even now). But once this event has come and gone - even if the soul is now willing to reclaim and restore into wholeness the separated parts of its self and power, the ego-mind (and shadow self) may be in such resistance (so wrapped up in supporting and perpetuating these holding patterns) that there is no available psychic energy left to "decompress" (or transform) them back into pure energy... nor enough soul resources left to help liberate whatever parts of Self is therein trapped. The easiest (and most expedient) solution to reverse this situation is to find a healer who can "un-zip" your body-mind-energy matrix and "re-associate" you with your lost soul parts.
There is a law
of physics which states that "energy cannot be created or
destroyed, only transformed from one form to another". Stuff
dwelling within the body-mind matrix - and ones shadow - is like
a piece of wood - there is tremendous "potential" energy stored,
but in this dense form it will take a tremendously powerful,
spiritually "kinetic" energetic catalyst or event to transmute
the "wood" (all your suppressed and condensed traumatic
experiences) back into its original form as pure light energy
(and if a big log, then it first has to be broken up into tiny
pieces before it can burn). It is said "it takes money to make
money"... it would also be accurate to say that "it takes energy
to transform energy". So the question is - where do you get the
extra energy? Again, the easiest (and most expedient) solution
is to find a healer who can add his spark (or torch) to help
catalyze and transform your subconscious "logs" (traumas and
shadows) into a burning flame.
No matter how spiritually advanced or clear we think we are, we all have our “blind spots” – those unconscious areas of our energy field (which we are in denial about and avoid at all costs) where we have stored our "shadow self" and its “nasty” unpleasant “stuff”. However, this (and more) is all part of the game of being human - we get "stuff" to work out. So like it or not, we have to deal with it the best way we can, by ourselves or with the help of others.
"Judge not less you be judged"
"Beware the beam in your own eye"
What you judge or condemn about
others is a reflection of what is stored in your own
body-mind-energy field. This dark area and its dense energies
are known as "the shadow". The consciousness attached to this
“shadow” (those subconscious/unconscious states of the ego-mind)
are called the “shadow self”. The tendency or natural
inclination of this “shadow self” is to "project" itself out
into the world, never taking personal responsibility, always
Looking from behind this "shadow" is like wearing dark sun glasses - everything you see appears to be dark (negative). Not realizing you have dark glasses (a shadow) you would eventually come to believe the world was dark. Such projections of the “shadow” are common and one of the most insidious saboteurs of healthy loving relationships.
Projection is also illustrated in the meaning and history of the word "scapegoat". In biblical times the priests would gather up the "sins" (shadows) of the people... and project (transfer) them upon a goat who would then be let loose into the wilds. (Jesus did this with someone whom apparently was possessed by a legion of entities, transferring them to pigs).
We all have this ability to
project, dump or transfer the unwanted energies and aspects of
ourselves upon others, making them our scapegoats. To differing
degrees of "success", some of our "projections" may just touch
the periphery of another's energy field and bounce off, and
other times penetrate much deeper and stay rooted. If an
individual has an intact and healthy sense of self and a very
strong energy field, they can walk away from this encounter
unscathed. Whereas another person who has a shattered sense of
self, a lowered level of awareness and a weak energy field may
be vulnerable to such attack, inadvertently taking this stuff
in. Unfortunately, children have not yet fully formed their
energy field and self of self, so they are the most vulnerable,
and such attacks (and resultant trauma) go deep into the
fundamental matrix of their being, gets carried over into
adulthood and passed on to the next generation. Taking
responsibility for (working on) our stuff insures that those
around us we love do not have to suffer the brunt and burden of
Another example of this “projecting” is found in co-dependent relationships. Irregardless of outward sex, everyone carries within them some innate qualities and mental constructs of both "male" and "female". However, our culture has its own ideas what men and women are to look and act like. To fit society’s model, a woman may reject or dissociate herself from her "masculine" qualities (such as strength, logic, reason, intellect) and "project" them out onto a real or imagined "outer man". Likewise, a man may do the same with his own "feminine" qualities (such as being loving, gentle, compassionate, feeling, nurturing) and in turn project them onto this “outer woman”. Some segments of society have long indoctrinated us into believing that this self dissociation and projection is normal, whereas it is quite disempowering. If our inherent original qualities are not fully embraced, this hole in the psyche will be filled with something that doesn’t belong - a simulacrum of its former self - perhaps devolving into an independent "Shadow Self". Since these shadow selves usually reside on the periphery of our conscious awareness (and to some degree, are a part of yet separate from our energy field) we may have no clue we even have a shadow self. However, others can more easily be aware of and affected by our shadow. Since this shadow often precedes us (stands between us and the world) when another person sees our projection, they will get a distorted opinion about who we really are (confusing the shadow for the real) and we shall feel like we are misunderstood by all. Since these aspects were created by us, we ultimately have karmic responsibility for them and all that they do.
So here we are with all these entities and shadows... and we may wonder.. how did this mess happen?!?! So many times and lives we were attacked, bruised, battered, our vibrations lowered, our energies weakened, our sense of self shattered. For whatever reasons, whether allowed or forced, forgive yourself - it happens to the best of us. Let’s do the work to heal and move on.
When you are willing to do something or give up something in exchange for another something, this agreement makes up the basis of a "contract".
There can be many different sorts
good "God Contracts" and “Karmic Agreements”
the bad co-dependent “Karmic Relationships”
and then the evil "Demonic” or “Dark Contracts"
(where the phrase "selling your soul" comes).
The main difference I see between
bad and evil contracts is in the degree and depth of how much of
self you give or trade away. Most people in codependent
relationships (unless soul mates) hardly get to the point where
they give up their soul, giving psychic energies instead.
One may share the depths of ones soul in any relationship, but to actually give your soul to another plants the seed of a dark contract to form, and over time be taken over by demonic control. Fortunately, this is not an easy thing to do and doesn’t happen too much in this more enlightened day and age. I am speaking of black magic of course, which is very rare to see now in its full blown state, but it does still exist (a carry over I think from past lifetimes when souls dwelt within the darker dimensions and played with forbidden knowledge).
When a person relinquishes their soul to another, it’s often done in reaction to something so discomforting and painful that you don’t want to know or feel. Yet by rejecting parts of the self, one diminishes the ability to be fully aware and feel, and if not aware, we can be manipulated and controlled (and though you may believe it or not, there are some very nasty spirits out there who are looking for souls who are not present in their own lives).
If you were one of these souls who had given up your soul to another (for whatever reason) it might not have felt problematic to you, at first . Being a willing participant in the deal, you might have gotten what you wanted (perhaps to not see the truth or feel the pain). Since the universe abhors a vacuum, so too does our heart and soul (or at least the place where they used to be) and something must eventually come to fill these empty holes. Where Love once was, fear, anger and hate comes in to take its place. If we reject truth, we are embraced by those beings who play in the dark, and the enemies of light become our friends. And with all “friends”, we begin to make agreements and contracts that hold us together (even with beings who would eat and tear us to pieces). Yet in our fear and ignorance we believe we have not many options. Fortunately, there are windows and doors of Grace that open, when the call may shine through into even the darkest of places, beckoning for us to return to that state of innocence before the fall. No one is denied that opportunity, but many refuse ("many are called but few are chosen" Matthew 22:14) .To be without sin, pure and whole is a choice we all (even the Devil) are offered. Once you take up that cross, the real work can begin.
Much of what we do, say or think can seem whimsical – impulsive – rising up from some unknown place for some unknown reason... but what’s this got to do with anything?
A lot of our impulses come from imprinted mannerisms and subconscious thoughts we picked up from our parents, friends, teachers (anyone from our past).
Some may be evolutionary, instinctual or organically hard wired into our genetic patterning (given by our ancestors).
Some of our impulses are dietary or chemically driven (drink enough coffee or sweetened colas and you too will be bouncing off the walls).
A surprising amount of our impulses comes as a result of influences from the spirit world (not even from our own selves).
From my research into the paranormal, working intimately with individuals and groups, I have found that many people are influenced by spirit beings (entities) who live around them in the spirit worlds. Depending on their level (and the level from which you are open and listening from) these spirit beings are sending either beneficial or detrimental guidance to you. Most people impulsively follow through with these promptings from spirit (that invisible world) never questioning where these impulses come from - nor if it is working for or against you.
Can we have conflicting impulses? Certainly. Everyone who has driven a car has felt an impulse that tells them to turn left and another impulse to go right. Our lives are determined by these choices we make - some of them quite small (a left or a right). We need to be able to differentiate if these impulses are coming from a clear and true place (or not). The spirit beings around us are constantly whispering into our subconscious ears, giving us guidance and feelings. Many of these spirit beings have differences of opinion... and the results are these conflicting impulses pulling us in different directions. If some of these impulses are coming from negative entities (or evil spirits) around, within, or corded to us, we could be in big trouble. In order to access the clearest impulses (the highest guidance that work for us) we need to be freed of these lower level entities. These hidden impulses (and the lower spirits from which they come) tamper with our ability and free will to choose our own destinies. Having sabotaged our lives, our relationships, our prosperity, our peace, our happiness – these negative spirits try to distort our perceptions. They veil our sense of reality to the point where we do not even realize who they are or what they are doing to us - we are ignorant and do not even know. It is imperative that we become free of these "monkeys on our backs" so we may get on with living as our true Self intended.