you mention Ego, most people think the worst. In some spiritual
or religious circles it assumes selfishness or at the extreme - the root
evil. But all that exists was created by God, and that includes
the Ego. So we really need to look at it in a more all encompasing
enlightened way, to see how beautiful it is, or if not, how it went
“Ego” is our personal portion of the great “Divine Flame” that sparked
and catalyzed the creative process of the multi-dimensional universe.
In its most healthy and whole state, our Ego flame appears as a
multi-faceted flower, each petal emboding one unique color in a
multi-colored array. Each petal of the Ego is connected to and located
various dimensional energy bodies and chakras, not necessarily in the
somewhere in the core. As the Ego is like a flame (thus imaged as a
petal but upright), it is in constant flux, undulating up, down and
around. It is in a way, a motivating force in our lives, created by and
run on passion and desire.
The following are a few of these Egos facets, flames or petals:
The Spiritual Ego
The “Spiritual Ego” is the highest, etheric facet of that “flame” held
within the core of the etheric body
This "etheric flame" holds the memory of this passionate cosmic event
(the creation of the multi-dimensional universe), and still identifies
itself as a part of its Oneness. The colors vary across the spectrum,
most all very light pastel in shade. Its constant desire is to unite
our individual self (and all creation) back into its Source - God. The
spiritual ego acts as a sort of touchstone that reminds our soul
(weighed down by creation) who we really are, and like a compass,
points us in the direction we must go to get back home. The spiritual
ego nudges us to expand beyond our limited sense of identity... beyond
awareness of our mate, immediate family, clan, tribe, village, or
state... beyond our culture or creed, job title or degree, financial
status, race, religion, sex or sexual orientation, political
affiliation, age or even pant size. By following the guiding light of
this Divine Flame, our awareness and sense of self will expand far
enough that we will eventually re-unite with all of creation, reaching
the pinnacle realization - Universal Love.
The Astral Ego
The “Astral Ego” is the astral facet of that “flame”, held within the
core of the astral body
Its colors vary and are generally vivid neon bright in shade. Its
desire is to explore and experience the astral dimensions and
inhabitants in all their various forms and expressions. (Many artists
live and work from here).
The Mental Ego
The “Mental Ego” or "Ego Mind" is the facet of that “flame” that thinks,
held within the core of the mental body
Its color is yellow to gold, dark or lightly shaded. Where the
spiritual egos desire is about expanding and uniting with the Creator
and love, the desire of the ego mind is to label, compartmentalize,
collect and contain every thing concept and experience into tidy little
boxes (figuratively or real), in order to have a sense of order in
chaos, that all makes sense, to make one think all is safe and we are,
at the least, symbolically, conceptually and philosophically at one, or
if not one, then all are in their rightful place. (Many scientists work
The Tribal Ego
The "Tribal Ego" is the biological or genetic facet of that
"flame", held within the core of our sexual
. Its color is orange. It is how we come to identify or
one with others through selective inclusion (or exclusion), and how we
find and chose our mates to reproduce, and families (and friends) to
nurture, protect and defend.
The Reptilian Ego
The "Reptilian Ego" is the lower material facet of that "flame",
closer to the earth, and thus held within the core of the physical body
(in the reptilian brain at the base of the skull). Its color is dark
red brown or black. It is about survival, manipulation, domination and
control over environment, self and others.
with trauma, the ego's positive
attributes can turn negative
excessive stress or trauma, the facet of any particular ego (on any
level), can be distorted or twisted, fractured from itself or
from the whole. In these instances, the ego is disconnected or
separated from the guiding desires of its higher nature, and instead of
following a higher purpose and passion, the ego goes into survival
mode, resisting and distracting.
If we are guided by a healthy
“spiritual” ego, we are in harmony and at one with our self and the
universe. However, when we become disconnected from that level of
awareness, pure drive and desire, we are left to function from the
lower egos. This soon creates a state of internal conflict with self
and others, disharmonious thoughts of separation, lack, pain and fear
for survival. In the vast history of human incarnation on this planet,
there have been many occasions when the conditions of life (both
natural and man made) were quite severe and traumatic, and simply to
survive humans needed to kill or be killed. Sadly, there are a great
many today who are still struggling to survive and thus allow the
passions and drives of their lower ego to take over (thus all our wars,
for ex). It is my hope that those of us who are consciously following
the higher urges of the
spiritual ego (by following a healing path for example) become more
aware of a greater purpose in life, and if enough strive for that, we as
species can move beyond our small ways.
When we were first created...
Our experience of the universe was undifferentiated.
There was no space or time.
There was no "where" or "when".
There was no concept of duality, only an awareness of "The One"
There was no separation between people and things.
There was no sense of "I" or "you", "mine" or "yours"
There was just an expansive, unlimited awareness of the unity of all
creation. We were at one with the "universal mind" and we could hear the
"universal voice" (the sound of AUM) resounding through all. And yet, in
the space of time (it could have been a moment or a millennia) we
realized that we were also endowed with an individual soul containing
the rudiments of a separate ego mind with a voice of its own. This
allowed us to have the freedom and ability to discriminate and choose
between one thing or another, between "yes" or "no". And with that
ability to choose came the self directing, self motivating will power to
act upon that determination.
And just like what happened in the Garden of Eden, nudged by our
reptilian ego (the serpent?) we ate the "apple" and gained the
"knowledge of good and evil" (the awareness of "duality"). And with
this one little choice, the great separation or rift in unity
consciousness began, eventually to cascade from one defying choice
after another, sweeping us further and further into duality and
separation... deeper and deeper into darkness and heavier density...
muffling our conscious awareness of the "universal mind" into an almost
imperceptible still small voice. We had stepped upon a path where the
vibrations and energies became more dense and material, descending us
deeper into the lower realms of creation. And the further we moved away
from the unity and harmony of the “Universal Mind” and the clarity of
its resonant truth, the louder the voice of the "ego mind" got (one
drowning the other out). It is this "ego mind" we must now grapple with
as it still judges and wills, perhaps now more than ever. And our soul
still must decide what voice it will listen to (hint; the voice that
yells loudest does not make it true).
The results of any choices we have ever made, the fruit of these actions
(our "karma") is held within our energy vibrational bodies, making up
who we are physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, today and
into the future.
We are the way we are because of all
the choices we have ever made.
So too is the world the way it is because of the accumulated choices of
all who have ever lived on her.
The Ego Mind labels or identifies the world around it (including its
self) from and within a conceptual or mental frame of reference. This is
good in the sense that by being able to discriminate between one thing
and another, we have developed a complex language which enables us to
communicate with other people... which has laid the foundation for us to
practically (and inventively) manipulate and control the world around
us. The downside is that the ego mind tends to identify with actions,
things, people and ideas, thus contracting our energies and
consciousness into compartmentalized boxes such as: this car is mine;
this is my wife; I am your son; you are my child; I am white; I am a
Christian; I am a Democrat, and so on.... This identification and
attachment alters ones thinking process and subsequent actions, all of
which creates and locks us into cycles of energetic patterns and
programs called by the Yogis "samscaras".
The Ego Mind also sits in judgment on these differences between
actions, things, people and ideas, eventually labeling one "good" and
the other "bad". These learned behaviors and belief systems become
indelibly imprinted upon our mind (like programing a computer) held
within our energetic and cellular memories, passed down in us (and our
ancestral lineage or tribal ego mind and DNA) lifetime after
lifetime... on and on until they get deleted (if ever). When our ego
mind starts to create and accumulate all these incidental programs, our
divine purpose instilled in us by our creator becomes overwritten and
we start to run on the egos distorted programs. From here it’s just a
matter of time before we become subject to and creations of our own
ego. And for all intents and purposes, our ego replaces the True and
becomes our God - the self created idol of our worship. Through
subterfuge of the consciousness, the ego further subverts and usurps
our divine purposes (like a virus that can mimic and confuse the immune
systems' own antibodies). At this point, the ego is so insidiously
enmeshed within our psyche that it can fool us into believing anything.
When it comes to spiritual matters, its rational thinking can run
circles around our intuitive feelings, leading us to believe all sorts
of lies as true (as exemplified so well in George Orwell's book "1984",
when he writes: "War is peace. Freedom is slavery. Ignorance is
"In a time of
universal deceit - telling the truth is a revolutionary act
Through the Divine Light of this healing work, distortions of the ego
mind can be broken down and released. The old twisted paradigms,
programs, traditions, ideas, belief systems... all that you have
accumulated from your church, school, family, friends... will no longer
fit, and you will once again be free to follow your divine passionate
purpose to be your highest Truth.
There is a time and a place to focus on and strengthen ego-identity, and
a time to release it. In our culture (generally speaking), men have
over-developed ego minds in order to function more efficiently in the
rational world. Men's ego orientation is centered around and for
themselves and what they can accomplish. For women, we may see the
opposite (though this is changing as more women enter academia and
engage in a full time career). Traditionally, the woman's ego focus has
been more on the needs of her children (verses herself). Mothers hold
their children to be the center of their world...their egoic point of
reference then is driven by the Tribal Ego Mind, not so much inside
themselves as for their children and immediate family. All the mothers
thoughts, feelings, identity... is invested in this "other". The mother
holds her ego identity and attention outwardly focused or expanded onto
others, while the fathers attention is directed towards personal
achievement of self. All judgement aside, both can provide healthy ego
role models for the developing child.
One must first fully embrace the
energetic container and content of ones limitations before being able
to completely transform and or release them.
Children all go through a stage where they feel as if the world revolves
around them - where they are held to develop as in a cocoon. This is an
important period where the ego is needed to form in order to develop a
strong sense of personal boundaries and a strong central point of
reference. Once firmly established, it is then possible to shift and
expand that limited perspective towards a different point of view or
dimension (when its time to release the containment of the cocoon and
freely fly out into the world). If the soul has not had the proper time
and environment to completely develop the various facets of its ego,
then it will be stuck, not able to shift or adjust from one facet to the
other as needed.
Throughout all our past lives existing on this or other planet and/or
dimension... we have had to compromise (as in to relinquish, trade, or
outright sell) our soul's integrity (what we feel is right and true) to
those more powerful beings or forces who have been (or still are) in
dominant controlling positions over our lives. This is especially true
in regard to that portion of our Soul that is the Ego, which is all
about our survival. So if in order to survive we needed to become
something or someone we are not, the ego steps in to help. And since it
is human nature to follow the examples shown us (good or bad) learning
and doing what we know (even if distorted), we tend to perpetuate
dysfunction by becoming co-conspirators, further teaching and enlisting
others by overstepping their healthy boundaries, and the cycle of
victim and perpetrator continues.
Integrity and Boundaries - A Practice
The basic foundation of any dynamic spiritual growth is rooted in having
"Integrity" - intact personal boundaries and a core self identity. If
sense of self is undeveloped or weak, one is not able to hold their
ground in the world and in relationships. The converse is a problem too
- with too strong of an ego and will without a respectful sense of
other, one easily oversteps into someone else's space. Either case is a
problem of personal integrity - one exhibits passive tendencies, the
other arrogant. When you have a strong sense of integrity - of where you
end and another begins - you will be able to say "NO!”, mean it and
unshakably stand in that truth no matter what the consequence. As a child, most
people were not given sovereignty over their own personal space (being
dominated by someone else's will) and are still in reaction to this in
many aspects of their lives (perhaps exhibited as passive aggressive
Here is a practice for you to develop your personal space - your
Go into your room or some personal private area where you feel safe to
connect to the universe and your God/Higher Self (somewhere that is
sound proof). Yell and scream "NO" over and over.
NO NO NO NO NO
See how this makes you feel. There is no one there but you and God. No
one is telling you this is wrong. Saying "NO" is acceptable and allowed.
It is your choice. In fact, if you cannot say "NO" with firmness and
commitment, can you truly say "Yes" to life? It is two sides to the same
coin, and both must be honored. (For balance, you may also practice the
reverse and say "YES" over and over
YES YES YES YES YES
The next step in this practice is
to say "No" to someone you have always said "Yes" to in regard to a
certain matter. This is an exercise in developing boundaries, open
communication and trust. If you have a relationship where you are
respected as a sovereign individual, then they will honor your "No"
with as much love and acceptance as a "Yes". When you do this practice,
choose what you say "No" to very carefully, making it something that is
just about your life and your boundaries. Be prepared for any response
from this other person. Remember, this is a test of your boundaries and
integrity and to what extent other people in your life are honoring of
that. It is also a test of how unconditionally loving and accepting the
other person is of you. The converse is true too - when you start to
claim your personal space, you must also give others their space and
honor their NO's.
Ego - Friend or Foe
Your ego can be your best friend or worst enemy. If you find that your
ego is running your life, it will not easily or willingly surrender or
relinquish control and power to the higher authority (your God Self).
But it has always been your
choice who you give the power and control of your life over too - your
ego self or your God Self (or maybe to some external authority). When
you finally realize that the ego (after running your life into the
ground and destroying everything and everyone around) is maybe not the
best most wisest ruler... perhaps only then are you ready to make
another choice and surrender control of your life up to a Higher Power
(to learn "humility", we must often seek this help through a human
One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle
that goes on inside people.
He said, "My son, the battle is between two wolves inside us
"One is Evil - It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret,
greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority,
lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.”
“The other is God - It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity,
humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth,
compassion and faith."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his
grandfather: "Which wolf wins?"
The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."
divine or flawed, our parents tried to do the best they could, but
everyone is to some extent trapped by their own egoic devices. Though
our earthly parents tried to wisely guide our choices, there comes a
point when we realize they have reached the end of their ability... and
this is when our journey starts, when we begin to search for someone
who may guide us beyond. For many, this is where the healer steps in to
show you to the "Inner Door", where you may come to know your own
spiritual master - your Inner Parent.
Ego Attachment and Fear
We are frail and insecure creatures subject to a human nature that has
been thousands of years in the making, struggling with the basic needs
to survive in an ever changing world. We all have learned to hold on
with a death grip to people places things, no matter if it eventually
falls apart, fades and dies. This is our ego programing.
"Store not your treasures where rust
We hold on to concepts, beliefs, bodies, people, things, feelings,
memories... everything that is constant and does not change. No wonder
we are in fear... the fear of losing all these things runs our lives:
fear of loss, fear of being out of control, fear of pain, fear of
getting old, fear of dying, fear of being wrong... these are just a few.
And yet, as long as we are holding on, it seems inevitable and logical
that all things we "possess" will eventually fall through our hands...
and all our worst fears will be realized. What to do?
One of the more serious problems a soul may have while it exists in this
material world - even for the souls who dwell in the spirit realms - is
that of ego "attachment", be it to attract something to ones self, or
repel. Even the slightest degree of attachment, if combined with the
souls power of intention, can have serious consequences. One slight
intention can cascade into a series of events that once started cannot
be stopped. In the weightless of space, an imperceptible touch motivated
by a subconscious thought, may nudge an object towards a certain
trajectory.. so to can a person in body, with the slightest push of a
tiny rock, start a cascade effect that will create an avalanche of
boulders to roll down a mountain. In heaven as it is on earth, this is
the power of ego, intention, attachment, attraction and repulsion.
The universal law of attraction states that you will gravitate towards
and attract what you desire. But once you have the object of your desire, it might then
If you hold anger, fear, hate and violence (no matter how deeply hidden
within your sub-consciousness) that is what you will magnetize to
yourself - no matter if it (or you) exists in physical or non physical
form. Such things will draw themselves to you as matter floating in
weightless space is attracted by the gravity of a planet. And as more
and more stuff is accumulated, it will add its density or weight upon or
around your soul... and quite possibly to your physical body (which may
be one cause of obesity). The more you can un-attach or let go of your
“stuff”, the freer and lighter you will become. This is of course easier
said than done... which is why we all need some extra healing help.
The best way we can ever hope to directly inter-face and
inter-act with what is real in this very moment is to not be prejudiced,
tainted, or influenced by all the “stuff” or "baggage" we hold. Over
lifetimes of journeying through many lands, we have accumulated much
"baggage", helpful at times, most is now outmoded and obsolete... yet we
are still carrying it around (and it is slowing us down).
Within every "bag" comes a number of multi-colored (some very dark)
reading glasses and an instruction manual on how to function in one
particular situation or another. Some baggage has a name on it that says
"relationships", one says "belief systems", and another "thoughts" and
so on. When we come into a new situation, we can't help but bring out
our "baggage", pull out our glasses and consult our manual. Some people
are very comfortable and feel safe with all this paraphernalia - it
gives them the belief that their lives are organized and they can make
sense of reality and thus know how to think, feel, and act in every
situation. Many are so fearfully attached to their stuff they won't
part from it for anything. Look around at all the things people have -
it’s all a reflection of their inner. The difficulty arises when, in
addition to all your baggage, the people we interact with bring their
baggage glasses and manuals... so instead of interacting directly with
that other person, you see them through this "stuff". When you realize
that your interpersonal relationships are filtered through"stuff", it
can be very sadening.
Once you are free of more and more stuff (via the healings) perhaps you
will begin to see that what you thought was reality is like nothing it
appeared to be: The people we thought we knew are nothing like they
really are. The truths we earlier believed in are empty shadows - mere
reflections of something else, deceptions or outright lies.
Underneath the surface, there exists layers and layers of diverse
consciousness and vibrations... whole worlds invisible to the material
eye... multi-dimensional beings behind beings... wheels within wheels...
spinning agendas desires and determinations... plans cast eons ago
unfolding in the now and eternal future. And we think we know what truth
is? The best we can hope for (if we really work at it) is to be clear
enough of our personal baggage so we can directly experience who we
really are... and perhaps, just perhaps, we may be able to really know
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