The “Spiritual Ego” is a
“spark” from the great “Divine
Flame” that catalyzed the creative process of the universe.
This spark is our portion of that flame, perhaps even, a portion of
God himself. This “spark” (that
we all carry inside) still holds the memory of this passionate event we
all share with our creator and the rest of creation. This
spark still identifies itself as being a part of this Oneness. Its
constant desire is to unite our individual
selves (and the rest of creation) back into its source - the Creator.
spiritual ego acts as a sort of touchstone that reminds our
soul (even if immersed in illusion and limitation) who we
really are... and like a compass, points us in the
direction we must go to get back home. The spiritual ego nudges us to
expand our sense of self beyond our limited sense of identity... beyond
an awareness of our mate, immediate family, clan, tribe, village,
state or nation... beyond our culture or creed, job title or degree,
financial status, race, religion, sex or sexual orientation, political
affiliation, age or even pant size. By following the guiding light of
this Divine Spark, our awareness and sense
of self will expand far enough that we will eventually re-unite with
all of creation, reaching the pinnacle
realization - Universal Love.
functioning from the “spiritual” ego, we
are in harmony and at one with ourself and the universe, and if
problems arise in life they are usually not of our own creation.
However, when we are
functioning from the "material" ego, the problems that arise mostly
self created inner conflict, disharmonious thoughts and feelings of
separation, lack, pain and fear. And
no wonder we hold all this inside- in the vast history of our
incarnation on this planet, there have been a great
many occasions when the conditions of life (both natural and man made)
were quite severe and traumatic. Simply from the point of view of a
biological life form, humans
needed to do some pretty nasty things in order to survive. However,
times have changed - we have evolved towards a greater purpose way
beyond the simple perpetuation of our biological species.
Just like our soul is endowed with the
ability to split itself into the form of many aspects or lower selves,
so too was
the spiritual ego given the ability to split itself into a lower
form of ego, albeit a “shadow” of the
original spark. Because our “shadow egos” and lower selves
are of a denser nature, they are more “oriented” towards functioning on
the lower dimensions of the
astral plane and material universe. For the sake of argument, one could
even call this lower ego the "astral" or “material ego”, a sort of
reverse or mirror image of our divine
ego. Where the divine ego is all about expanding and uniting with the
love, the material ego is all about contraction of self. It labels and
compartmentalizes all of creation and all experience into tidy little
boxes and concepts. And all that it identifies, it holds on to and
dear life against any and all comers:
When we were first created...
Our experience of the universe was undifferentiated.
There was no space or time.
There was no "where" or "when".
There was no concept of duality, only an awareness of "The One"
There was no separation between people and things.
There was no sense of "I" or "you", "mine" or "yours".
just an expansive, unlimited awareness of the unity of all creation. We
were at one with the "universal mind" and we could hear the "universal
voice" (the sound of AUM) resounding through all. And yet, in the space
of time (it
could have been a moment or a millennia) we realized that we were also
endowed with an individual soul containing the rudiments
of a “separate mind” with a “separate
voice”. This allowed us to have the freedom and ability to
discriminate and choose between one thing or another, between "yes" or
"no". And with that ability to choose came the self directing, self
motivating will power to act upon that determination.
just like what happened in the Garden of Eden, nudged by our
shadow ego (the serpent?) we ate the "apple" and gained the
of good and evil" (the awareness of "duality"). And with this one
little choice, the great separation or rift in unity
consciousness began, eventually to cascade from one defying choice after another, sweeping us
further and further into duality... and deeper and deeper into darker
and heavier density... muffling our conscious awareness of the
into an almost imperceptible still small voice. We had stepped upon a
path where the vibrations
and energies became more and more convoluted and material, descending
us deeper into the lower realms of creation. And the further we
moved away from the unity and harmony of the “Universal Mind”
and the clarity of its resonant truth, the louder the voice
of the "ego mind" got (one drowning out the other). It is this "ego
mind" we must now grapple with as it still judges and wills, perhaps now more than ever.
soul still must decide what voice it will listen to (hint; the voice
that yells loudest does not make it true).
of any choices we have ever made, the fruit of these actions (our
"karma") is held within our energy vibrational bodies, making up who
we are physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, today and
into the future.
We are the way we are because of all the choices we have ever made.
So too is the world
the way it is because of the accumulated choices of
all who have ever lived on her.
Mind has the ability to label or identify the world around it
(including its self)
from and within a conceptual or mental frame of reference.
This is good in the sense that by being able to discriminate between
one thing and another, we have developed a complex language which
enables us to communicate with other people... which has
foundation for us to practically (and inventively) manipulate and
control the world around us.
The downside is that the ego mind tends to identify
with actions, things, people and ideas, thus contracting our energies
and consciousness into compartamentalized boxes such as: this car is
mine; this is my wife; I am your son;
are my child; I am white; I am a Christian; I am a
Democrat, and so on.... This identification and attachment alters ones
thinking process and subsequent actions, all
of which creates and locks us into cycles of energetic patterns and
programs called by the Yogis "samscaras".
Mind also sits in judgment on these differences between actions,
things, people and ideas, eventually labeling one "good" and the other
"bad". These learned behaviors and belief systems become indelibly
imprinted upon our mind (like programs in a computer) held within our
energetic and cellular memories, passed down in us (and our ancestral
lineage) lifetime after
lifetime... on and on (until somehow they get deleted). When our ego
starts to create and accumulate all these incidental programs, our divine purpose instilled in us by our
creator becomes overwritten and we start to run on the egos
programs. From here on out it’s just a matter of time before we become
subject to and creations of our own ego. And for all intents and
our ego replaces the True and becomes our god - the false idol of our
worship. Through subterfuge of
the consciousness, the ego
further subverts and usurps our divine purposes (like a virus that can
mimic and confuse the immune systems' own antibodies). At this point,
the ego is so insidiously enmeshed within our psyche that it can fool
us into believing anything. When it comes to spiritual matters, its rational thinking
can run circles around our intuitive feelings, leading us to believe all
sorts of lies as true (as exemplified so well in George Orwell's book
"1984": "War is
peace. Freedom is slavery. Ignorance is strength.) "In a time of universal deceit - telling the truth is a revolutionary act."
Through the Divine Light of this healing work, stuff created by the ego mind
shall be broken down and released. The old twisted distorted paradigms, programs,
traditions, ideas, belief systems... all that you have accumulated
from your church, school, family, friends... will no longer fit,
and you will once again be free to follow your divine purpose and be
your highest Truth.
There is a time and a place to strengthen our ego-identity, and a time
to release it. In our culture (generally speaking), men have over-developed ego
minds in order to function more efficiently in the rational world. Mens ego orientation is centered around and for
themselves and what they can accomplish. For women, we may see the opposite
(though this is changing as more women enter academia and engage in a full time career). Traditionally, the
woman's focus has been more on the needs of her children (verses
herself). Mothers hold their children to be the center of their
world...their egoic point of reference then is not so much inside themselves as outside
in their children. All the
mothers thoughts, feelings, identity... is invested in this "other". The
mother holds her ego identity and attention outwardly focused or expanded onto others, while the
fathers attention is directed towards personal achievement of self. All judgement aside, both are important role
models demonstrating two polar examples of being for the developing child.
must first fully embrace the energetic container and content of ones
limitations before being able to completely transform and release them.
all go through a stage where they feel as if the world revolves around
them - where they are held to develop as in a cocoon. This is an
important period where the ego is needed to form in order to develop a
strong sense of personal boundaries and a central point of reference.
Once firmly established, then it is possible to shift and expand that
limited perspective towards a different point of view, to release the
containment of the cocoon and freely fly out into the world.
If the soul has not had the proper time and environment to completely
develop its ego, then it will be stuck and not be able to transform.
- Boundaries - A Practice
foundation of any dynamic spiritual
growth is rooted in having "Integrity" - intact personal boundaries and
a core self identity. If sense of self is
undeveloped or weak, one is not able to hold their ground in the
world and in relationships. The converse is a problem
too - with too strong of an ego and will without a respectful sense of
other, one easily oversteps into someone else's space. Either case is
a problem of personal integrity - one exhibits passive tendencies, the
other arrogant or aggressive tendencies. When you have a strong sense
integrity - of where you end and another begins - you will be able to
say "NO!”, mean it and unshakably stand by it no matter what
the consequence. As a child, most people were not given sovereignty
over their own personal space (being dominated by someone else's will)
and are still
in reaction to this in many aspects of their lives (perhaps exhibited
as passive aggressive behaviors).
Here is a
practice for you to develop your personal space - your ego-will.
Go into your room or some personal private area where you feel safe to
connect to the universe and your God/Higher Self (somewhere that is
sound proof). Yell and scream "NO" over and over.
NO NO NO NO
this makes you feel. There is no one there but you and God. No one is telling you this is wrong. Saying "NO" is allowed and
acceptable. It is your choice. In
fact, if you cannot say "NO" with firmness and commitment, can you
truly say "Yes" to life? It is two sides to the same coin, and both
must be honored alike (for balance, you may also practice the reverse
and say "YES" over and over).
step in this practice is to say "No" to someone in your life you have
always said "Yes" to (or vice versa). This is a exercise in developing
boundaries, open communication and trust. If you have a relationship
where you are respected
as a sovereign individual, then they will equally receive and honor
your "No" with as much love and acceptance as a "Yes". When you do this
practice, choose what you say "No" to very carefully, making it
that is just about your life and your boundaries. Be prepared for any
response from this other person. Remember, this is a test of your
boundaries and integrity... and to what extent other people around
you are honoring of that. It is also a test of how unconditionally
loving and accepting the other person is of you. The converse is true
too - when you
start to claim your personal space, you must also give others their
- Friend or Foe
ego can be your best
friend or worst
enemy. If you find that the materially
minded ego is running your life, it will not easily or willingly
surrender or relinquish
control and power to the higher authority (your God Self). But it has always been your
choice who you give the power and control of your life over too - your
ego self or your God Self (and in many situations, you have even given
that power and control over to some external authority). When you
finally realize that the ego (after
running your life into the ground and destroying you and everything
and everyone around you), is maybe not the best most wisest ruler...
perhaps only then are you
ready to make another choice and surrender control of your life up to a
Higher Power (since the
ego must learn "humility", this help must often come through a
One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said, "My son, the battle is between two wolves inside us all.”
"One is Evil - It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed,
arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false
pride, superiority, and ego.”
“The other is God - It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity,
humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: "Which wolf wins?"
The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."
Though our earthly parents tried to wisely guide our choices,
they too may have been trapped by their own egoic
devices (however divine or
flawed our earthly parents, I trust they did the best they could with
what they had, karma and all). So it's natural there comes a point when
we realize our earthly parents have gone beyond their ability to be our
guiding light... and this is when the journey
starts, when we begin to search for someone who may guide us beyond.
For many, this is where the healer steps in to show you to the "Inner
Door", where eventually you may come to realize your own inner
parent - your own spiritual master.
We are frail and insecure creatures subject to a human nature that has
been thousands of years in the making, struggling with the
basic needs to survive in an ever changing world. We all have learned
to hold on with a death grip to all that comes, no matter if it
apart, fades and decays with time.
your treasures where rust doth corrupt"
We hold on
to concepts, beliefs, bodies, people, things, feelings, memories...
everything. No wonder we are constantly in fear... the fear of losing
all these things runs and motivates our lives: fear of loss, fear of
being out of control, fear of pain, fear of getting old, fear of dying,
fear of being wrong... these are just a few. And yet, as long as we are
holding on, it seems inevitable and logical that all things we "possess" will eventually fall through our
hands... and all our worst fears will be realized. What to do?
more serious problems a soul may have while it exists in this material
world - even for the souls who dwell in the spirit realms - is that of
ego "attachment", be it to attract something to ones self, or repell.
Even the slightest degree
of attachment, if combined with the souls power of intention, can have
serious consequences. One slight intention can
cascade a series of events that once started cannot be stopped. In the
weightless of space, an imperceptible touch motivated by a subconscious
thought, may nudge an object towards a certain trajectory.. so to can a
person in body, with the slightest push of a tiny rock,
start a cascade effect that will create an avalanch of boulders to roll
down a mountain. In heaven as it is on earth, this is the power of ego,
intention, attachment, attraction and repulsion.
universal law of attraction states that you will gravitate towards and
attract what you desire.
Once you have the object of
your desire, you may find it possesses you.
you hold anger, fear, hate and violence (no matter how deeply
hidden within your sub-consciousness) that is what you will magnetize
yourself - no matter if it (or you) exists in physical or non physical
form. Such things will draw themselves to you as matter floating in
weightless space is attracted by the gravity of a planet. And as more
and more stuff is accumulated, it will add its density or weight upon
your soul... and quite possibly to your physical body (which may be one
cause for obesity). The more you can un-attach or let go of your
“stuff”, the freer and lighter you will become. This is of course
easier said than done... which is why we
all need the healing work.
The best way we can ever hope to directly
inter-face and inter-act with what is real in this very moment is to
not be prejudiced, tainted, or influenced by all the
“stuff” we hold, commonly known as
"baggage". Over lifetimes of journeying through many lands, we have
accumulated much "baggage", helpful at times, most is now
outmoded and obsolete... yet we are still carrying it around (and it is
slowing us down).
every "bag" comes a number of multi-colored (some very dark) reading
glasses and an instruction manual on how to function in one
particular situation or another. Some baggage has a name on it that says
"relationships", one says "belief systems", and another "thoughts" and so on.
When we come into a new situation, we can't help but bring out our
"baggage", pull out our glasses and consult our manual. Some people are
very comfortable and feel safe with all this paraphernalia - it gives
them the belief that their lives are organized and they can make sense
of reality and thus know how to
think, feel, and act in every situation. Many are so deathly
and fearfully attached to their stuff... they won't part from
it for anything. In fact, many people are even wanting to
accumulate more stuff ! (so true).
Look around at all the things people have - it’s all a
reflection of their inner. The difficulty arises when, in addition to
all your baggage, the people we interact with bring their baggage,
glasses and manuals... so instead of interacting directly with that
other person, it all filters through this other stuff. When you realize
that most of your interpersonal relationships are based on a relationship of "stuff", it can be very
are free of more and more stuff (via the healings) perhaps you will
begin to see that what you thought was reality is like nothing it
appeared to be: The people who we felt and thought we knew are nothing
like we earlier perceived. The truths we earlier believed in are empty
shadows - mere reflections of something else or outright lies.
the surface, there exists layers and layers of diverse consciousness
and vibrations... whole worlds invisible to the material eye...
multi-dimensional beings behind beings... wheels within wheels...
spinning agendas desires and determinations... plans cast eons ago
unfolding in the now and eternal future. And we think we know what
truth is? The best we can hope for (if we really work at it) is to be
clear enough of our personal baggage so that we can directly experience
who we really are... and perhaps, just perhaps, we may be able to
really know another.
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