Healing
is to your energy field like working
out at the gym is to your body – you can become fatigued and
energized. In both cases, there is an adjustment period where your
body-mind will need to recuperate and integrate. Depending upon the
individual and the intensity of the session, the length of time
needed for this will vary. Remember, this is serious work - and
whether or not you are aware of it - it will affect you. This work
also takes some physical energy to process, so you will definitely
need to rest your body and restore its nutritional reserves. So
listen to your body. If you feel like sleeping - sleep. If you are
hungry - eat.
No matter
what you experience in or out of the
sessions, do not be alarmed. This work may jar loose and release to
the surface of your body-mind a lot of old suppressed energies,
emotions, memories or “stuff”. This
“stuff”
may make you feel nasty and gnarly, irritated, angry or upset,
fearful, sad, depressed, tired, ashamed, grief-stricken, heart
broken... the list goes on. All these things that you are feeling
are coming up to the surface to be released into the light of
day.
Remember...
you are not your
“stuff”.
Though
you may have been living with
your “stuff” for a very long time, and by now it
may
even define who you think you are, you are not your
“stuff”.
You
don’t need to understand, read
a book about, dramatize, or label your stuff”. Doing any of
these things is not going to make it leave you any faster. Quite
the opposite - reinforcing your stuffs existence like this is going
to make it that much harder for it to leave. Besides, doing all
these things indicates that you are still attached to your stuff.
Giving them all that energy, thought and attention is like feeding
more wood to a fire you want to burn out. Just be a witness to it,
that’s all. You are not the fire fighter here, just an
observer. Spirit is doing the work - you just need to get out of
the way.
Do not
resist, act out, or fight your
stuff... but look at it with love and acceptance with the
expectation that it will fall away in its good time.
If it
would help you put things into
perspective, imagine if your own child or someone else you loved
were feeling these things – what would you say to them? What
would you do? I mention this because we can often be more
compassionate with others than we can be with ourselves. Turn that
compassion around and apply it to your self. There is probably a hurt,
sad, lonely lost little child inside you who just wants your loving
attention and understanding. This is the best time to give it -
when your stuff is coming up to your awareness. At one time or
another (in the near or distant past) there were very good reasons
for you to have these feelings... but then you were not given the
space to fully feel and let them go.
I, we,
all in Spirit say...
“Now is the time you are given another chance
and here is your sacred healing space”.
You have
our permission to feel and emote in
any way you need.
If you
are sad - you may cry.
If you are angry - you may rage.
If you are in grief - you may mourn.
If you are in fear – you may tremble.
If you are tired – you may rest.
Then perhaps you will allow yourself to feel
the fullness of your happiness, love and joy
While
you
are processing your stuff, be
respectful of where others are in their own lives, and I mean this for
everyone, even husbands
and wives. If you are going through your healing process and your
spouse is not, don’t try to lay your trip on them –
it’s about free will – if they are not willing to
heal
their own stuff, it’s not your task to force them to do
so. Besides, we lead by example. The more you redirect your attentions
into your own process, you will generate such a magnetic
attraction, that others will surely and naturally be drawn in.
Don't force it - if it is meant to be, it will happen.
Which
reminds me...
One reason why others can’t handle our feelings (being
present in a neutral, accepting and objective way) is that most of
us are constantly trying to reject/throw our feelings away or
“project” them out of ourselves - which is usually
interpreted and felt by others as if you were blaming your feelings
on them (having once been married I know the feeling). If we fully
took responsibility for, accepted and trusted ourselves with our
feelings, then others would sense this and begin to trust and
accept us and our process, and maybe, even start to allow
themselves to trust and accept their own feelings. But we have to
do it first.
Our
feelings are ours and ours alone. To
fully heal them, we must fully embrace them (warts and all), and
this means also taking full responsibility for them, no matter how
awful they are. Any feelings we have inside, we have had a part in
creating. What I mean when I say “you are responsible for
creating your own feelings” is this: The worst thing
imaginable can be done to you, and if you do not take it in and/or
react to it, there would be nothing energetically sticking in you
and you could walk away inwardly unscathed. Of course, the event
would still have happened, but you would not be carrying it around
in you. On the other hand, if you took that in and/or reacted...
let’s say (for ex.) that someone does something to you and
you get angry at them... before this anger is projected outwards,
this anger is first generated in you. So who feels this anger first
is you. If the other person chooses to take that anger in to their
being, then it now is theirs and then they have to deal with
it.
Fortunately,
while we are processing,
Spirit does cushion the blow - we most times do not need to fully
relive nor feel the full force of all these old traumas (but we
will need to feel a part of it - it is unavoidable if we want to be
free of it). As Jesus said “We all have our own crosses to
bear”. And like Jesus, we cannot avoid our Mount Calvary if
we want our Ascension too (in other words “we can’t
have our cake and eat it too” – so sorry to
disappoint
you).
When
“stuff” comes up into your
physical body and mind, you will need to do two things: make peace
with it and work it out.
Working
this stuff out of your body-mind can
be done in any number of different (and personal) ways. It is
suggested that you do some physical activity every day - by getting
your energy moving in this basic way, this will assist your
releasing. Again, listen to your body-mind and see how much
activity it needs to do. There are many options to choose from when
selecting a physical activity: walking, hiking, jogging, running,
dance, yoga, weight lifting, gardening, biking... and so many more
choices (they are all good). Again, listen to what your body-mind
feels comfortable with. You may even feel like releasing this stuff
by expressing it in a variety of creative endeavors. One could do
art, music, writing/journaling, speaking, singing... this again
depends on what sort of stuff is inside that needs to be released.
Keep listening and do what you feel you need to do. If anything, be
gentle with yourself.
Making
peace with your stuff may not be
easy at first, especially when all those around us from day one
have said “it’s not ok to feel this way or
that”.
We all have been told to “suppress” or shove our
feelings down and out of the way so we can get real and practical
and serious and get on with our jobs. Especially for men is this
hard to do. We cannot appear weak or too sensitive – this is
not how the dominant members of our sex become successful in life
by expressing how they truly feel (does a Superman cry?). The
common belief that we must be strong for others (especially those
of the opposite sex) and not appear insecure and emotional - is
bull shit! There is nothing wrong with feeling and emoting. We are
human, not automatons. The stereotype that men are to be strong and
only women can cry is built on a lie, for if a man can’t cry
can he really feel the depths of love? Is this what is wanted of
men in our society? (I hope not).
However,
I do think this deception has
been perpetuated by certain segments of the collective unconscious
(the shadow side of us all) who are out to manipulate us into doing
their dirty work. They know that if a man cant feel sad and cry, he
will not be able to feel love... and without that heart felt sense
of moral conscious... he can go to war and kill with impunity. No
new revelation here - this has been going on for thousands of
years.
The
greatest warrior is he who can allow
himself to cry and love and feel everything in between – no
holding back in all his (or her) feelings. This person can fully be
present in all that he does, whether it is to love – or to
war (and I do believe there is a time for war). The point is... we
need to be 100% all present and accounted for on all levels of our
being, not just the few ones we or others like. This of course is
equally true for women as it is for men, but women have had a
longer time practicing this side of the feelings spectrum. But even
women need to cut loose and let out other feelings that yet again,
other segments of the collective unconscious (the shadow side of us
all, remember?) does not allow them to feel (which I suppose has
been anger, among others). I think this is part of what we speak of
when we refer to “self empowerment” – the
reclaiming of all our feelings (which this healing work can support
for both men and women).
The true
battle for all of us is to be
authentic with all our feelings, whatever they may be. It is all
our truth. Embrace it and love it and accept it. Then and only then
will it be able to shift and transform and release... and you may
be free of it and move on.
And when
the time
comes for you to continue on with your next session,
your inner self may give you a nudge.
Perhaps the thought will cross your mind,
or you will just feel its time.
And if it is not a nudge you heed,
then a push or a prod you will receive.
Spirit
works in mysterious ways here
– how they (your guides and masters) motivate you to do this
work is very personal (and a whole other story we may cover later).
Anyway, if you are unsure what your feelings or intuition is
telling you in this regard, feel free to email me and we can look
into.
Journaling
I suggest you keep a written journal of any
and all
experiences or sensations that occur during your healing sessions.
Include any new inspirations, understandings, messages, dreams,
“coincidental” events and shifts in feelings that
come
to you later on in the week. This should help you be more
consciously aware of the subtle intricacies of what is happening -
and how the healings are affecting your being. In other words,
writing this information down helps you conceptually or "mentally"
integrate and keep track of your own progress. Journaling is also
an excellent way for you to communicate with and develop a stronger
more conscious relationship with your own Higher Self and spirit
guides.
Uniqueness
As we are all each quite unique (and at different stages of
healing at any given time) so too will our experiences be
different. Any comparisons from one session to another - or from
one person to another - would not give justice to the unique
reality present within each moment and each person (none of us are
doing the same life trip - so try not to compare or
judge).
Rest
assured, during and immediately after a
healing, anything you experience within your mind-body-spirit is
exactly what you need in that moment (even if it is perceived as
"negative")... and in the next session, everything will have
shifted. This is what is so delicious about this work... from one
session to the next one never knows what new and unique experiences
and opportunities will open up for you. It could be that in just
one more session - in just one little energetic turn around the
corner - your life could be miraculously shifted into something new
and entirely different.... How exciting is that?!
Processing
Energies - An Exercise
Emotions = E-energy + motion =
movement of
energy.
When
your
emotions get stirred up, they need
to be exercised, moved or "processed" out. One way to do this is
through a practice called the
“Latihan”, which
comes
from a spiritual organization called “Subud”
("Latihan"
means "Exercise" in Indonesian). This practice is done individually or
in
groups (something to try if so inclined). They do not mix the sexes
when they do this, but have the women do their Latihan separately
from the men (I suppose this would eliminate sexual tension or
posturing).
Before
you begin your Latihan, you need to
create a sacred and safe space, such as an empty room within the
privacy of your own home, insolated enough so that any noises or
movements will not disturb others. You may either stand or sit,
eyes closed or open... and set the intention by saying just
once
"I give
myself permission to totally let go
NOW".
The
people in Subud simply say
“Begin” when they do their Latihan, but you can say
whatever feels right to you.
Stay in
this space within the set time that
you designate, let’s say for only 20 or 30 minutes, maybe
doing this practice only 2 times a week... no more, no less (at
least to start off with, until you get the hang of it). Nothing may
happen at first or even for the first times you try this, but when
you are in this space for the full 20 or 30 minutes with the belief
and conviction and sincerity that this is what you truly want to
have happen, you are giving your spirit the permission to come out
and be, and it will come through... slowly or all at once,
depending on your openness. This exercise is (among other things)
about “letting go” of your mental controls,
constraints
and judgments. The more you can trust in yourself and let go, the
more you will allow the inner self and the Higher Power to take
over, to be, and to process your stuff.
During
this time, when and however you feel
like it, allow your body to move itself... watch your breath and
your thoughts... allow whatever is in your mind to come out if it
wants to... speak... let yourself be as loud as you feel... sing...
yell... scream.... just let it all out. Its not that you are
forcing anything to happen here – it’s just that...
once you have set and reinforced the parameters of the intention -
these things will come out of their own accord – you just
need to allow it to happen – you need to stand out of the way
and let it flow. Don’t judge or control. It’s a
good
practice in letting go. And if you do this process regularly, this
will help more deeply root the expectations and reinforce the
energies of your inner and outer being, which will make it flow
easier each time you do this.
As we
grew up, many of us learned not to
be emotional around people, so we forced and shoved all that freely
flowing, spontaneous energy and life further down and out of the
way. Every time we did, another part of us died, or weakened a
little bit more. When you do this practice by yourself, you are
learning to trust yourself with your own emotions. When you do this
in Subud (or some other group) you are learning to trust sharing
your emotions with others – and this can be healing all by
itself. Eventually, we will not need groups to do this in but will
be able to do this anywhere with anyone. This is called
“taking your practice into the real world”
– till
every moment you will be in your practice.
If you
partner this Latihan practice
with my healing work, your path will unfold that much faster and
completer. In fact, if you do my healing work with any other
spiritual practice, the same will occur. There is no conflict, just
mutual support. You can of course just do this healing work, and
that would be sufficient, but I wanted to let you know that just
about anything else you need do is ok with me, just as long as you
are clear that it is your Spirit guiding you to do it.
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